I clearly remember what happened to me when I was 3 years old and the shame that came with it. Some people say this is far too young to remember specific details.
I disagree.
I remember what my room was like and where furniture was positioned. Every detail of what was done by a man I didn’t know is still in my mind. I vividly remember the shame felt when I spoke of what was done.
How you made me is amazing and wonderful. I praise you for that. What you have done is wonderful. I know that very well. Psalm 139:14
I Am Amazing
My daughter, Isabella, is three and a half years old. She is the second born twin and our fifth (and final may I add) child. Isabella may only be a child, but what I see in her I very rarely see in adults.
Isabella seems to have this special connection with God which flows through her to other people around her. She lights up the room as soon as she walks in and has this insane ability to make you laugh and smile. Something I know I naturally find hard to do. But with Isabella, she can even make me laugh; to the point that I consider it pure joy.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us
Ephesians 3:20
When Paul wrote to the Ephesians, he was doing so stuck behind bars in prison. How he was able to do that is beyond me. It mustn’t have been easy for him. Think about it…
He was in a place so dark and he was on his own. That kind of solitary confinement doesn’t play well with the mind. Can you imagine what it must have been like? Maybe you can. Maybe you have been in a place where you feel so alone and there has been nothing but darkness around you. You don’t have to physically be in a cell to experience this.
You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way. Song of Solomon 4:7
My daughter was standing in front of the mirror one day and I caught her admiring herself. I am ok with her doing this because she wasn’t doing it in a vain way. What made me notice her was how confident she looked in herself. She knows she is beautiful.
My daughter knows she is beautiful because it is something that has been instilled into her ever since she was born. We have told all our children how beautiful they are. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says, because what we say matters most of all.
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father's care. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Matthew 10:29-31
I often lose sight of how significant I am to God. When I look at other people, I can see how much they are worth. Yet when I look at myself, I struggle to see what significant impact I can have on those around me. It’s like I get stuck in this pit of low self-worth and I don’t see what value I can bring.