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Day 11 in God’s Love – Reckless Love

“Reckless Love” by Cory Asbury is a well-known worship song. It is a beautiful song with its well meaning words. Also, it is one that people could resonate with very well.

However, there is something about this song which meant I found it really hard to sing the words. I disagreed with them as I just could not apply them to my life.

Imagining God leaving the ninety-nine to chase after me, the one who is lost, was something I could not grasp. I couldn’t imagine God busting a gut to chase after me, let alone climb mountains and tear down walls. It made me cry to think God would do any of this:

There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me

The story behind Reckless Love

The  word reckless comes from the Old English word receleas, which means careless. If your attitude is reckless you aren’t worried about your actions. It could also have a big impact on you and others around you. Reckless, in contrast, is the opposite of considerate or careful.

“Reckless Love” has caused a lot of controversy due to the use of the word reckless. A lot of people don’t agree with the word being associated with God. However, Cory has written on his Facebook profile why he used the phrase, “reckless Love of God”:

“When I use the phrase, “the reckless love of God”, I’m not saying that God Himself is reckless. I am, however, saying that the way He loves, is in many regards, quite so. What I mean is this: He is utterly unconcerned with the consequences of His actions with regards to His own safety, comfort, and well-being. His love isn’t crafty or slick. It’s not cunning or shrewd. In fact, all things considered, it’s quite childlike, and might I even suggest, sometimes downright ridiculous. His love bankrupted heaven for you. His love doesn’t consider Himself first.”

He then goes on to say…

His love isn’t selfish or self-serving. He doesn’t wonder what He’ll gain or lose by putting Himself out there. He simply gives Himself away on the off-chance that one of us might look back at Him and offer ourselves in return.”

God’s reckless love in the past

God wants a relationship with us. Furthermore, he will pursue us and seek us out. His love is not what is reckless but how He wants to engage with us maybe considered as so.

The parables which Jesus told about the lost son and the lost sheep are a prime example. The father accepted his son back into his family. This would have been seen as reckless, especially after the father himself was rejected. Even more so, as his son had spent all his inheritance and didn’t want to help his father out.

It would have looked like the father is being reckless, but Jesus showed this is exactly what God’s love is like. God would give up everything all over again to receive the son (or daughter) back into his arms.

In addition to this, it is the same with the lost sheep. Why worry about one sheep and risk all the others being lost? In His eyes, the ninety-nine sheep are safe and he is willing to seek out those who are lost – no matter what the cost is.

This is, without a doubt, quite a reckless action. However, saving the one person who is lost can have such dramatic consequences. Think of Saul on the road to Damascus and how God met him and changed him. Look at the effect then Paul (who was Saul) had on the increase of believers.

God’s reckless love now

Who would have thought? God’s reckless love for Saul changed the lives of many people to come. Even now, as scripture is read, lives are still changing.

The reason why I struggle singing Reckless Love goes back to what I have written previously about being worthy. It’s the same old story of not feeling worthy enough to receive His love.

I think cory Asbury captures perfectly what God really does. God loves you and will risk anything to save you, and He saves you because you are worth it!

Something to think about…

Listen to “Reckless Love” by Cory Asbury and meditate on his words. Let it sink deep into your heart and start to believe the words he has written.

Prayer

Dear God, thank you for still believing in me and still chasing after me. Even when I have sinned against you, you still love me and want me back. I am sorry if I have ever turned my back on you. Please never give up on me. Amen

Day 10 in God’s Love – Blocking God’s Love

I often go through these cycles. You know, where everything is hunky dory and then bang, you come crashing down to Earth. Everything comes tumbling down around you because you forget Who you are in a relationship with.

Do you ever feel like that?

I struggle. Big time.

When I go through these periods of when I don’t feel God around me, I find it hard to worship Him. The words that appear on the over head projector resonate so much with how I feel, but I just can’t get them to come out of my mouth.

What blocks God?

I have this block that is so heavy it holds me back from praising God. That block…is me! I turn up every week to church, but I don’t show up. I’m so caught up in my own world I don’t see what is around me. God wants to love me so much but I put up this barrier to stop Him from coming near me.

Why do I do that? It’s because I am scared. When God starts to do something good in us, sometimes it is a little scary. When change occurs and something new is taking place it’s daunting.

We are afraid because we are unsure. We do not know what the future holds. Shutting ourselves off to what God wants to release in us seems the best course of action because we are fearful of what God wants us to do.

Shutting ourselves off to what God wants to release in us seems the best course of action because we are fearful of what God wants us to do. Share on X

Releasing the block

When I get into this cycle of blocking out God I forget what being a Christian is all about. It’s about a relationship with God. A relationship is a connection between two people. It’s not something that can be done on our own, and God wants a relationship with us.

In order to strengthen a relationship, time and energy has to be put in by both parties. I think we pretty much know that God invests a lot of time and energy into us. So when we feel like God is not around or that He is a bit distant from us, it must be us that is not investing enough.

There are two ways we can strengthen our relationship with God:

  • Pray – Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. Jeremiah 29:12
  • Spend time in His word – “All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.” 2 Timothy 3:16-17

The more we spend time with God, the more it will strengthen our relationship. The time we spend with God will help to soften our hard hearts so that the love and mercy of God can seep in.

The time we spend with God will help to soften our hard hearts so that the love and mercy of God can seep in. Share on X

Something to think about…

God wants to spend time with you. If you’re anything like me you probably struggle to get two words said to Him. First thing in the morning for me doesn’t work because of kids. I would have to get up at some unearthly hour, and I do that already with my babies.

Instead I try and find the time when I am busy. There is always time. When I am washing up, when I am driving back from school drop off or when I am loading the washing machine. Why don’t you find some time when you are busy to talk to God?

As for spending time in the word, why not sign up to an app that sends a Bible verse directly to your phone? I have signed up with YouVersion. It’s a great way to focus on a verse each day.

Prayer

Dear God, I am sorry for the times I have put up a barrier between you and me. It is not my intention to block you out, but sometimes life gets hard. At these times God, be persistent with me. Please never let me go. Amen

Day 9 in God’s Love – A Love Letter From God

A love letter from God
A love letter from God

A Love Letter from God

In my previous post, I wrote about God’s love and how He loves us as a father. I’d like to imagine that I would receive a love letter from God, my father. If I did, this is what it would say:

To my beautiful daughter,

Yes, that is what you are. Beautiful. Don’t ever let anyone tell you differently. I want to tell you something that will blow your mind. It will be the most important message you will ever hear in your entire life. 

I love you!

You don’t realise just how much I love you. I loved you before you were born. Even before you were knitted in the womb. And when you were born, what a good day that was. I looked at you and I was pleased with what I created. After all, not that I am one to boast, but I did make you in my own image. 

You are perfect in every way and I love you.

I love you even when you feel you shouldn’t be loved. You don’t need to do anything to make me love you any less. Nothing in this world would ever tear me away from loving you. Nothing. Not even the evil that was done against you. In fact, what you endured makes me love you even more. 

Yes, I know what you went through. I was there. I have always been with you. You thought I abandoned you, but I didn’t. I could never abandon you. I would never leave you or disown you because of what someone has done to you. 

You are my precious child and I love you. 

You may be ashamed of what happened, but I am not. I could never be ashamed of you. You are my beloved daughter. You are so precious to me and I sing songs of joy every time I think of you. 

One day, all this pain will be gone and I will wipe away all your tears. I am so sorry for the suffering you have endured. Rest in my arms dear one and I will hold you tight. I will comfort you and I will make sure that you will receive more for the pain you have suffered. The suffering you experienced will be rewarded.

But for now I need you. Oh, how I need you! I have a plan for your life that you are not able to see. One that will make you thrive. Everything you have been brave to withstand I will turn it around and use it for a good purpose. You will be a light to those who are afraid in the dark. 

In all this, my precious child, remember that I love you. 

All my love, God

Day 8 in God’s Love – The Father’s Love

Jesus presents God to us in many ways. There is nothing though as significant as God being our Daddy. Just in the same way as we have an earthly father, God is our Heavenly Father. Jesus depicts something special about the Father’s love when He refers to God as Abba, Father. 

Abba is an Aramaic word that literally means “Father.” It was a well known name that conveyed certainty, trust and love. The name Abba implies a relationship that has a closeness similar to that of a father and his child. It also signifies a trust that is genuine. One that is very similar to that of a young child and his “daddy”. 

The Father’s love in the Bible

There are only three instances in the Bible where it refers to God as Abba, Father:

In Mark’s gospel where Jesus prays to God in Gethsemane. This is right before he was to be taken to be crucified. He knew what was coming up and he cries out to his daddy just like any child would that wants rescuing.

He said, “Abba, Father, all things are possible to you. Please remove this cup from me. However, not what I desire, but what you desire.” Mark 14:36

In Romans, Paul describes how God saves us from being chained to sin and brings us into His family. He adopts us as His children. That means we are chosen and he is our father. Our daddy. 

So you have not received a spirit that makes you fearful slaves. Instead, you received God’s Spirit when he adopted you as his own children. Now we call him, “Abba, Father.” Romans 8:15

In Galatians, Paul says something similar to what he said in Romans. Instead, this time we are given confirmation through the Spirit of Jesus that we are accepted, once again, as adopted children. Just as a child lives with a father whom he trusts, so we do with our Heavenly Father. 

And because we are his children, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, prompting us to call out, ‘Abba, Father.’ Galatians 4:6

The Father’s love on Earth

But what happens if we don’t have a good experience from our earthly fathers? What image does it make us have of God as our Heavenly Father? 

What if we needed to seek approval from our father? Is this the same with God? What if our dad was not around much when we were children? Will God not be around much either? 

What if our father was the one that neglected us? What if he didn’t show his love towards us? Or the opposite…what if he showed too much love? 

Our experience of what we received from our earthly father will mirror what we think of our Heavenly Father. 

Our experience of what we received from our earthly father will mirror what we think of our Heavenly Father.  Share on X

The Father’s love for me

My father was not around much when I was young due to work. It seemed like he went to work before I woke up and came back after I had gone to bed. In my child’s mind, I very rarely saw him. This is what I remember. 

Although he didn’t say it much, I knew my dad loved me. He was from an era where men didn’t talk about their feelings, so I would rarely hear him tell me he loved me. I knew he did love me though. When I did see him he was like this gentle giant. 

The lack of presence in my life from my dad in my early years, coupled with the abuse I received from a male child minder, has tainted the image I have of God being my loving father. 

I find it hard to accept that God would always be there for me, no matter what. And because I didn’t see my father much, where would I find his approval? In my abuser? My abuser told me he loved me, so was this what love was like?

The Father’s love for us

The problem I am having is that I am picturing God based on my experiences. It should be the other way around. God was around before the first father on earth, Adam. He is the true father, the original, before all fathers. Any other father after God should be modelled on God. It is not God who is the model of any father. 

Any other father after God should be modelled on God. It is not God who is the model of any father.  Share on X

Jesus tells the story of the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32. The father in this story is exactly what God is like. He has plenty of grace and mercy – it is new every day and never runs out! He takes all our wrong doings and forgives us. Just like the son in the story, we can always run freely back to him no matter what we have done or what we have been through. 

It doesn’t matter what state we are in, or how broken we feel, God welcomes us back with open arms. Share on X

The father never gave up on his son and welcomed him back in, even in the state he was in. This is the bit I love. God is like that with us. It doesn’t matter what state we are in, or how broken we feel, God welcomes us back with open arms. He never gives up on us!

The Father’s Love
The Father’s Love

I need to think of what God is like first and foremost. Jonathan Edwards, a British Athlete, sums it up very well:

Instead of looking at my dad and then back at God, I learned to look at God first. . . . If I didn’t start with God, then he would always be the replica rather than the original.

Jonathan Edwards

Something to think about…

Read through Luke 15:11-32 and write down all the characteristics of the father. Apply these now to your image of God as your father. This is exactly what the Father’s Love is like, and more!

Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you that you have mercy and grace in abundance and that you have your arms open wide ready for when we want to return back to you. Thank you for not giving up on us when we have turned away from you. Thank you for the true Father you really are. I pray that you help each of us in our relationships with our earthly fathers. Amen. 

Day 7 in God’s Love – Trusting God

On day 5 I touched on the subject of feeling unworthy. I felt God’s love was out of my reach because I was not worthy enough. Jesus wants me to believe I am worthy and loved beyond measure. If the birds in the air are loved and provided for, then there should be no doubt that I am worthy too.

Another major obstacle I have which hinders me from accepting God’s love is trust. I think this is quite obvious on many levels.

Why Trusting is Hard

  • My abuser was a childminder. If you are a parent, at some point in your life you will put your trust in a childminder to look after your children well. My abuser had a completely different idea of how to keep me safe and he completely abused his power.
  • I lost trust in my parents. After all, they left me with the person who abused me for nearly 5 years. Granted, they didn’t know, so it wasn’t really their fault. But still, every time he came around and they left it was like they were allowing it. It took me a while to realise and come to terms with the fact they weren’t to blame.
  • I lost trust in myself. I couldn’t stop what was happening and I didn’t speak up. How could I have let it carry on?
  • I lost trust in the education system. Every time I hear or see the description of what to look for in a child being abused I cringe. I wasn’t that “typical” child so I slipped through the net undetected.
  • I didn’t trust men. This one is obvious I think!
  • It was my trust in God that was lost though mainly. I come from a Christian family and my parents were ministers, so why would God let this happen to me? God saw exactly what I went through. If He loved me, then surely He would have stopped it?

Who’s in control?

As I was going through my abuse, I could not see what the outcome was going to be. Would this ever end? What would happen to me? At times, I just wanted to die.

There had been a few times when I took things into my own hands and I took control of where my life was heading. Thankfully, God was still in control in those moments.

It’s only now, over 25 years later, can I see God was with me. He is still with me. The verse from Genesis completely makes sense to me now:

You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. Genesis 50:20

When I was younger, I didn’t know what it meant to trust God. It’s only as I have matured, both in age and spiritually, have I realised what putting my faith in God meant.

Over the years, I have grown to love Jeremiah 29:11. I have come to understand how much our God loves us. After all, what loving God would really want to see His children come to harm?

Something to think about…

The healing journey of a survivor can be a lonely one at times. I have learnt when I lean into the One who loves me, I am not on my own. When I look back to the hard times when I have felt alone, I can see God has been there. It’s only been after the trial can I see this.

Can you recollect any moments in your life where you can see God has been at work? Write them down in a journal. Next time you go through a challenging time, read through those moments and hold onto the fact that God is with you and He has a plan for you.

Prayer

God, there are times when I struggle to stand firm on your promises. Please provide me with the strength I need to get up each day and fight the battles I have. Amen.