I have had a headache now for twenty-one days (not that I am counting). I suffer with headaches generally, but they don’t usually last for this long. To say that I am slightly irritated with this is a little bit of an understatement…I’m sure that my husband and friends can vouch for this! I have been so moody and snappy with almost just about everyone I know, especially with those that I love. This is so unlike me as well. I know I’m not the most diplomatic of people and I say things straight to the point. Well, I’m your typical Northerner I reckon, so I see that there is no point in mixing my words or beating around the bush. At least you know what you get with me! I try not to offend anyone, which I know is sometimes hard to do. For those that know me though, they know how to take me, which is with a pinch of salt!
Anyway, with these headaches, I have been even more diplomatic than usual! NOT!! I have tried over-the-counter medication (the strongest that I can get without going through a doctor) and that has not helped. It numbs the pain for maybe an hour if I am lucky, but the pain soon comes back with vengeance. I tried to resist having wine, but in the end I succumbed to it! For anyone who knows me, they will know that I absolutely love a good red wine. It did help to numb the head a little, but only in the short term.
Anyhow, I finally resorted in going to the doctors. When it comes to the doctors, I will put everyone else in my family first and make time for them, but I don’t do the same for me. I am always too busy to take care of myself. If one of my children were ill, I would be straight up there without hesitation. I would drop whatever I was doing and then suffer the consequences later. I would either have to make up the time owed at work, or whatever I was in the middle of doing would have to be finished off later. When it comes to myself though, I make up excuses. When I have three children that are dependent on me; work full time; the upkeep of the home to attend to; other commitments outside work and home, then I just simply do not have the time to go to the doctors when there is so much to do.
I can’t fault the doctor in anyway. She was so good and checked me out really thoroughly. It turns out that my blood pressure is a little on the high side, which may be the reason as to why I am having headaches. Not good at my age really. I’m not even 35 yet, and I have the small possibility that if I am not careful, there could be something more serious happening. Am I worried? You bet I am! Who wouldn’t be? I should try not to worry though. So much energy is wasted on worrying, and my energy should be used for much more positive things. I am finding at the moment, with all this worrying, that I am a little bit more negative about myself and situations I am in.
The devil loves it when I am like this…and oh boy does he take it to his advantage! Peter has it all sewn up though when he tells us what to do with our worrying. Basically, give all your worries to God, and be aware of the devil and what he is doing around you. He is watching you, and ready and waiting for you to make any wrong move. In my case, worrying about my headaches is causing me to snap at those people that love me dearly. I need to hand everything over to God and to let him do His stuff.